Purpose and Hope

Ever look back at the story of your life and think about all the things you would change if you could? ...the relationship you would have avoided, the friends you should have stayed away from, the decisions that seemed so trivial at the time that change the entire course of things...

We all have, myself included. And sometimes that can bring us to a very sad place...a self pity place.

Examples of thoughts people have:
"If I hadn't had kids, maybe I would have a successful career."
"If I didn't drop out of school to marry that guy, maybe I would have graduated from college."
"If I had listened to my parents, I wouldn't had gotten caught up with the wrong crowd."
etc.

In my personal life I have been through all sorts of things. And of course, I wish that I had made better choices growing up, and that I could erase hurtful people and memories from my life. That movie 'Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind' was such an amazing depiction of what each and everyone of us would do if we could (If you have not seen it, you should).

But here is the bottom line....I have these two amazing kids. How they got here, and what I went through in my life is pretty trivial in comparison to what I have gained.

I had my first child, Matthew, at age 20....with a boy I had no common sense enough at the time to see was completely wrong for me. Regardless, I suddenly had this amazing little person, my sweet Mattie. And I realized for the first time, that life was no longer only about me. And it forced me to grow up and change my priorities, so that I could be what this innocent little angel needed. He gave me joy, and a new outlook on life.

This child gave me PURPOSE.

5 years later, God blessed me with a little girl, my Trinity Hope. She was never supposed to be here. All the doctors said that I would never get pregnant again because I suffered from severe endometriosis. But 3 surgeries, 2 years of hormone treatments, and lots of prayer later....my miracle baby was here. I prayed and prayed and prayed for her to come into my life. And I never gave up. And her existence against all opposition, was a pure act of God...

This child showed me the definition of HOPE.

My children, Matthew Devon and Trinity Hope, are now 9 and 4 years old. In the time that I have been blessed with them, my life has not been perfect. I have faced very challenging, difficult, and hurtful people and events. But I have been able to get through each and everything thrown at me...because of the PURPOSE and HOPE I have found in my children. My perfect gifts, in an imperfect world.

I encourage you, my friends....that although things in life can be hard and unpredictable....you must find out what gives you your purpose and hope, and live for it....change for it...grow for it. I promise you, that your time will not be wasted, and you will make it through the hard times stronger than you were....better than you were.

I pray for 2012, that all of my family, friends, and loved ones would have an understanding of there own worth, that they would release the hurts of the past and enjoy each day as it comes, that they would be a blessing to others, and others would be a blessing to them, that they would be surrounded by guardian angels, that they would be content, happy, and healthy....and let no one steal their joy, that they would face challenges with strength and dignity, that they would succeed in their pursuits, that God would reveal Himself to them in creative ways, that they would be safe always, and lastly....that they would know and feel that they are loved. Bless you all this New Year. And may you all find your true purpose and hope.


Be Safe! 

Love and Light, The Kate