Giving up is NOT the answer...

Ever feel like you know you are on the wrong path, but you are too fearful to do what you have to do to move on? So, you end up stuck right? You give up?...

 Listen, sometimes it take extreme things to happen to get you to get off the wrong path. Sometimes the fear of what you might lose or have to go through to get where you belong, is too intimidating....and some people never change course because of it. Listen...I had to go through HELL and have my heart ripped out of my chest and spit on by people I loved and trusted in during this process. I was broken, shattered, and nearly destroyed on the inside.....but had I not gone through these events, I would not be the changed person I am today.

  

The reality that you get ONE chance, and ONE life....and that is something you must come to grips with. 

I had wasted over a decade on men and friends that were wrong for me....that made me feel small, unworthy, ugly disposable, and worthless....and even had me convinced that those things were true, not just by their words, but their actions.  I was TIRED of crying all the time...I was tired of being afraid all the time. And the consequences I feared were no longer scary enough to hold me back....so I put my trust in God, and moved on....away from the people and places and things that I had soul-tied myself too so foolishly.

  

Three years later, I have this incredible life that I never thought was possible. I am in a relationship that reflects the LOVE that I always hoped for....I have a closer relationship with my family than I ever did before....I have invested ONLY in close friendships with people that bring positive things into my life and the life of my children. I am a better mother, and my emotions no longer cloud my ability to enjoy my children. My children ARE MY JOY.

  

I'm writing this to let you know that storms come in many forms, and sometimes the most devastating times in our lives are things that IF we handle them with grace, and faith, and trust in God, can help form us, prepare us, and mold us into the person we were meant to be....into a person that can be a witness, and help to others who are also hurting and going through their own personal hell. 

  

God is good, ALL THE TIME.

  

There are so many people in my life over the past year in particular that have had extremely heartbreaking things happen in their lives. If you are one of them, just know that this is only a season in your life. It isn't over. There is a God that loves you more than you can ever understand. He is not the cause of the bad in your life, but He is there to help you through it. Trying to get by on your own will never work.

  

I am a 29 year old mother of 2.

  

I am flawed.

  

I have OCD and PTSD.

  

In my life I have been abused, betrayed, unappreciated, belittled, judged, humiliated, and degraded.

  

I have suffered loss, failure, regret, embarrassment, and devastation.

  

THESE THINGS DO NOT DEFINE ME!

  

I am STRONG. I am BEAUTIFUL. I am SMART. I am TALENTED. I am BLESSED. I am LOVED. I am SPECIAL.

It doesn't matter what ANY human thinks of you. It only matter what Christ thinks of you. And He loves you as if you were PERFECT. He looks past all your brokenness, and sees your heart. And there is nothing He can not get you through!!!

Your life can be wonderful.

Mine is....and 3 years ago, I was ready to give up. I'm glad I didn't.